Over 2 years ago, the american and I had a rather frank discussion. One that involved talking about awkward topics that were not comfortable to discuss after just under a year of seriously dating; us and our future. I was hesitant. I'm a bit of a skeptic and I didn't think I could handle it - but he reassured me in his calm and collected way. So we laid some ground rules, made a few promises, and I cried my eyes out.
I look back and I think I was rather naive. I thought we'd follow this perfect path, trimmed with flowers that bloomed all year round and grass that was always green. I thought the rules we laid and the promises we made would always stand - my glasses were extra rosey. Today, I know shit isn't always perfect. Things change, life happens. We've evolved as individuals and as a couple; and that's completely okay with me.
The first little while, I read a million and one articles, blogs, and books about how to make a long distance relationship work - I'm totally nerdy like that. And they all had similar themes: over-communicate always, plan your next trips to see each other and try to take turns traveling, and set a time-line as to when you'll be together. At least, these were the three themes that stuck in my mind over the past years. But, to be completely candid, we've stuck to almost none of them. First, it's hard to over-communicate when you have two emotional introverts. But, we've become extremely sensitive to each other's feelings and know when something is off (we also openly try to work on our communication). Second, we don't take turns. The american's job doesn't allow him to take much time off, so I'm often the one flying. But we definitely plan our visits ahead - in fact, we've already begun planning 2011. Lastly, we have no timeline. Originally we had a 3 year plan - but after I became completely consumed with the timeline to the point of (near) insanity (I have a bit of a problem with trying to
plan my timelines a bit too much), I took that 3 year plan off the table.
Today, things are good.
Really good. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to be an even better communicator (I'm actually a great communicator about the good stuff, it's just when I'm upset that I find I shut down), I'd love to take turns traveling (but I know this is just not realistic), and I'd love to have a timeline. But life doesn't always work out the way you planned it to - and that's okay.
Because today things are really, really good.