unintentional inadequacies

They say life is a mixture of luck, choice, fate, and consequence. (I'm not sure who 'they' are, but I might agree with the sentiment.)

I've often left gigs,  not because I hated the people or I hated the place - but rather I left because I no longer felt challenged, I was no longer learning.

So a few months ago I took a new gig. A fairly large change; from a mom-and-pop-shop to a global gig. I now sit in on conversations, phone calls, meetings where I leave often feeling inadequate. Not because my contributions are belittled (or anything of the sort), but rather because I'm learning such big, substance-filled things every day that I often wonder if my sponge-like mind will be able to retain it all.

It makes me feel often nervous, sometimes anxious, but always thankful. Thankful that I'm in a position where learning is still allowed, hell encouraged. Life without learning would be a boring adventure, don't ya think?

If you ever stop learning, evaluate why you haven't moved on. If work no longer makes you a tad bit nervous (in the best of ways), ask yourself if you still care. A gut check every few months is necessary in this fast-paced world. It might keep you from regretting your decisions down the road.

And regret, my friends, is toxic.